This is the point where I never look back.

Okay, so this is something I have posted about before, forget all of the posts about me trying to get through my life and lets think about the person I want to become so I can come back and read it again and again.

Lets start simple, I want to be a friendly compassionate person, with a big heart and a lot of empathy, I want to be mature and responsible,  relaxed and happy, fun and care free. Nice to be around, with great manners, values, with the ability to express my own style and interests. With intelligence, ambition, and a great sense of humour, with understanding and wisdom, persistent and diligence, adventurous, conscientious, dependable, discreet, fearless, observant, independent, optimistic, confident, encouraging, reliable, helpful, humble, Imaginative and honest. I want to encourage others, and make them and myself laugh. To be self-dependant. Someone who knows when to relax, and laugh and believes in myself, but sees the importance in family and friendship, happy with solitude, my own company and myself in general. To know what I want and how to achieve it, doing it the right way with blood, sweat and tears. To be confident in myself and see when I have done wrong admitting to it, not needing to sweat the little things and understanding my own weaknesses, with the ability to adapt, change and grow as person, and be able to surprise myself.

So this is the person I will be, I will no longer look back on the past in a negative way, I will no longer freak out and spend hours imagining what others are up to or believing others don't like me, from this message forward, my own goal is to be the person I want to be, to find happiness with in my self and the strength and determination I have to change and be stronger person, because my life has only just begun and it is time to be okay with who I am and feel confident in what I have to bring to other people. I am a wonderful, down to earth woman, who is worth getting to know and worth being friends with, I'm not hiding my true feelings because I live my life true to myself, I live myself for me and it makes me happy.

I accept myself, I love myself and I forgive myself of the things I didn't know until I learnt.

There is no need to sit there and hypothesis my life or anyone else, because they will either stay with you or leave it, but my life will go on, my life will continue whether others are a part of it or not.
I need to stop looking back at my life like I can change it because I cant but I can change the future, my options are unlimited and my dreams could take me anywhere, I just need to keep walking forward. I am going to get addicted to me. :D