Me and other me. Am I going crazy

OMG I have an alter ego.... I really really really do. What do I do, apparently it is caused Usually, people who have been deprived or who haven’t been able to do what they always wanted to do in life have an alter ego. They seem to live in their dreams and have a life of what they had always wanted. Having an alter ego at times can be beneficial, provided it does not go overboard. It gives the person a sense of completeness. However, if the alter ego is more perfect than your real self, then it can result in low self-esteem. It is also at times seen that if the alter ego is dominating, then it can prevent a person from leading a normal life. If you have an alter ego then it is important that you don’t let it dominate over your personal life. This can affect your friends and family in a negative manner. Shit. a person's secondary or alternative personality. Fuck. What I really need to do is stop. What I really need to fix this. Whole shit what the fuck do I do. Is it taking over, has it already taken over, does this make me crazy. if this is true, and I dont know that it is, Is this the negative part of me, did it take over and do I need to fight to get control back, because there is a part of me that destroys everything good in my life, but it feels like me, so is it me? and if so do I not just need to fight it, in order to regain control of my brain, I mean this is me, right here right now, and Im not sure what happened for a while there, what made me lose my cool why I dont understand what could possibly have caused me to feel the way I did last night, so this means I have to fight with myself, to gain control over myself. It is the place you go and escape, so it need to be shut down and destroyed. No more day dreaming, if I feel like I am day dreaming. I just dreamed this shit, I was imagining telling Chris what I am feeling like its going to make a difference, I imagined telling him all about this resolution all about this truth and then I imagined saying good bye but telling him that we could try this again when we are friends, when we are ready. that is what I imagined doing, because that seems to be all that matters, how is that all that matters. It shouldn't be. It cant be. I need to find ways to distract myself and stop my mind from wandering, because I think If I can stop that from happening for a while I will be okay. I think that if I manage to escape the fake world in my head and live in reality of ra while that I can actually get better, I think that all of my mistakes happen because of my head, my thoughts, and I think that is my alter ego, because I have to grow the fuck up.