Toxic

Recently I started doing some research into what is classified as a toxic person and the results were well... Nothing is black and white, I think we know that with one particular relationship of mine the idea that he is a bad person verse a good person is skewed. I have always defended him, saying that he doesn't know how to and I believe that, but I don't think it should be used as a excuse. SO when i began my research I stopped to think why am I researching this, then I had to be honest with myself, because I want to find out I'm not crazy I'm not in the wrong, that is just my ego getting in the way, this isn't he kind of friendship where there can be true strong egos, but I need to work out why I want this friendship, am I still caught up with the idea that we might date, because you tell yourself no but then well... your feelings don't follow that up. Okay, yeah while writing this I am distracted trying to find a job and writing a completely different post, that made me realise none of this matters, made me realise that there is good in every person no body is just bad, but you may meet someone when they are in a bad place or you are in a bad place, or the timing just isn't right, and this may be hard to hear but you may just not be suited for each other, your flaws piss each other off and cause fights, sometimes you have to learn to lower your expectations of someone or learn to not let the annoying things they say get to you, because if the friendship is worth it then that is your only option, but we all must work out why you are putting so much effort in. Why does this friendship mean more to you then any other friendship you have, be honest with yourself, don't be a fool but understand that it is okay to have these friends, don't rely on them too much, don't invest too much in them and laugh about it all because if you let them frustrate you when they are being them then they aren't the friend for you, learn to let things go with this friend, that is what I have learnt learn to let things go so I won't make some big post about toxic friendships and what you need avoid because we all need to learn for ourselves what we as individuals classify as having a toxic effect on ourselves.