So it has been a while now, and I have been really busy. I can guarantee that I made a post thursday, so that just means I need to tell you about the last couple of days. Needless to say I couldn't hold in what had happened on thursday, as much as Matt had requested I did, because it seemed too much like what my father had done, I know its not fair to put it all on Matt I made a decision but I wasn't comfortable with what had happened and I know that it is pretty clear that that is the case. So the real question is who did I tell and why did I tell them, because I cant keep secrets like this a secret anymore because I never want to be in the position I was in before so I tole all my friends, intact I told his cousin, so I know that it will go back around and that he will find out what I said but the whole point of all this is... I stood up for myself, I felt pressured into doing it and didn't feel that I was able to say no. End of story, Chris and Liam both found out about it I told Liam and Chris was listening, because even though I wasn't talking to him he still listens to every single thing that I said. And He stopped me from going over to Matts house, instead I stayed at his house, and to be fair I haven't heard from Matt since and that is a good thing. So on Friday night I stayed at Chris's house with his dad and we didn't really do much of anything I was so tired from the end of the week that we didn't really do much we just watched a show called house of lies that was incredibly unusual and I didn't like it too much but it had the chick from Veronica Mars in it so I didn't mind too much. :) What fans do for celebrities. And then on Saturday we went to Hagley and shoot some hoops went back to his house had lunch and then we both headed over to Chris's house which ended up being a huge mess, because I had to bus there and Chris biked and when we arrived at the bus exchange he saw his uncle (Kind of a sad story) and the bus was going to leave so I just hoped on and texted him that I was on the bus, but he didn't check his texts and thought I had gone to the toilet so hung around for half an hour before finally checking his messages and biking over to Liam's house. That night at Liams house we played a game called munchkins which was pretty cool but when I was winning it was pretty intense, and I didn't mind when I fell behind. :P In the end Chris won and he biked home, with the plan for him to come back the next day for study which was the whole point in me being there in the first place. So the next morning comes around and Liam's had to drive a flatmate out to pick up his car and while he is gone I watched some of the walking dead and then he got back and for hours it was just the two of us, we mostly drank tea and talked and eventually he got invited to go ice skating so after finally hearing form Chris who get this had gone to the park to shoot some hopes and when he arrived there, he was greeted by a barbecue being hosted by an asian family, so needless to say that they all wanted to play basketball with them and he got his assed kicked, even though they were all shorter then him, so at this point its been hours and me and Liam have no idea where he is or what he is doing when eventually we hear from him, and Liam let him know about the ice skating at 4.30 and he got to Liam's house at four and no study took place but when Chris arrived Liam was teaching me some piano and I tend to get a little frustrated with Chris when he tries to teach me stuff and he joined in... SO anyway I left to get ready and all went ice skating, but by this point I wasn't the only one frustrated with Chris for his slowness.
Ice Skating.
So we got to the ice skating place and I have ice skated before and remember being okay at it well first off I sucked which was partly due to the shoes not being done up properly and also because they were the wrong size. So once that was adjusted it went a little better and I was able to skate away from the wall, eventually I did fall over three times, but I have this horrible tendency to get really frustrated when I cant control something due to a lack of knowledge so I was in a bad mood but eventually I was able to skate some what well. :P
So we went back to Liams place and we both stayed the night, I bought us fish an chips for dinner and this massively huge burger, that int eh end Liam ate and then me and chris did some study and went to bed, only chris had trouble sleeping and managed to keep me awake a lot of the night. The next morning we left reasonably early I bused into town and then remembered that it was a public holiday and therefore the library was closed, so I walked to hagley and hung out there while I waited for my dad to finish work, in the end we drove josh home, but this was the point where I made another really dumb decision, I masturbated in public at school. I got bored, so that is what I did, and I fear anyone I know will read this but I feel relatively confident that they all care about me enough not to invade my privacy by reading my personal, yet public blog. :)
By the time I am posting this two weeks has passed. School went by with a breeze. ;) and before long it was the next set of weekend. And I went trick or treating with my family because it is halloween and I dressed up as a badass Zombie and my outfit was on point, everyone agrees, it was seriously well done. I am quite proud of that. Right now I am listening to Chris's music, honestly I wasn't kidding when I told hime they were amazing. I meant it. I did get upset with him today but I got over it. I know its my issues not his, and he isn't meaning it to be rude, I can make a lot of excuses because I don't want to do things and he finds it frustrating, its a personal flaw of mine, and something I really ought to work on. Like the man who only says yes. :)
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