Jealousy a cold hearted bitch

Jealousy is a nasty bitch and one that fights with you every step if the way, especially when you want to help somebody but they won't let you and then you find out that they are talking to another one of their friends, although you don't really know that for a fact you just know they have been hanging out, You don't even know that for a fact you just no they meet a location to bike to a different location to meet you, So what is the problem, what is the issue? I mean really they are friends, come on they are good friends, and they will hang out, and they have known each other for a few years, but as he has pointed out Sam is really good at making you forget your worries because he is an up beat person, so chances are he isn't actually consoling in him. and you know he is still making an effort with you, so what is really going on. So the real question, why is this bothering you. Why does it make you feel so alone and left out, is it because deep inside you feel alone from yourself, like you cant admit how you are feeling to yourself, are you hiding something you don't want to admit, and is this bringing you down and making you emotionally sad, Your emotions are crazy up and down like a Yoyo, take a breath don't block out the emotions let them in but let yourself feel. Because it isn't even about anyone else, everything is to do with yourself. You had the whole relying on someone else for everything and look where that got you, so maybe it is time that you relied on yourself for happiness and security instad of seeking it in others, because its about damn time you tried to just be yourself, you don't have to be bubbling with happiness you just have to be you. Yourself and time and perseverance will heal anything. you aren't alone because you always have yourself, you are always loved by yourself, take a minute to realise what is important, instead of searching of the happiness with in others, because that is where jealousy comes from, when you don't feel good enough for someone else, you feel like they are only friends with you for a stupid reason. You believe they are too good for you and everyone who comes along is a better person to them, means more to them. That isn't fair to put on them, and that isn't fair for yourself either.