Absent.

Let me talk about what I have been up to the last two days. My last post was on Tuesday when I told you about how I had heard from

If you give a little, love a little, and you will get a little love of your own.

I know it seems silly, but inspirational quotes are inspirational I like reading them because it raises my spirit.
School was school, On Friday I went to counselling, Chris came, it went really well, actually I Was surprised, he said he didn't want to talk to much and over step the boundaries and I tried to say that it was okay for him talk and it wasn't over stepping, what I dint want to say was it would be interesting to actually see what you are thinking but I didn't say that. I guess for me its hard because I hate keeping things in, I feel like I'm keeping secrets and that makes me feel I'm in someway being deceitful, even though Im not, and I get that, and I keep a lot in, but I also like to be open.

Right now I am thinking about a lot o things, Im thinking about what was left unsaid, but for me its hard because I know that Im probably not on Chris' mind very often f even at all, so I feel like it weird that he is often on my mind, I almost feel embarrassed about it. But I know that approximately 1/100 thoughts are about him, some thoughts are complete crap, some are me escaping into my imaginary world, and then some are sane. I guess I am just like everyone else I don't spend a disproportional amount of time thinking about him, but he is important in my life so he will cross my mind.

School, classes are going well,
Chemistry is going well
Physics, honestly I got to spend some time working on it.
Biology, Just need lots of work
Calculus, Ill be right. :)

HEY I only take four subjects.

Now literally all my subjects are with Chris.
Yeah, this week was a lot of Chris.
Oh big new, I am staying at Matts house on Friday. Should be fun, should be good. Pretty nervous and excited all at the same time. I am imagining what could take place. :) Probably nothing Im imagining, if you catch my drift.p Anyway. Its not that bad. Perfectly normal. I hope. ;P

I accept myself I love myself, and I forgive myself.