Monday, 21 December 2015

You can ruin the present worrying about how the past will affect your future.

Do I have an addictive personality, I often think I do. Getting overly obsessed with certain things and people in my life to the point where I often feel I am the one pushing them away by being far to clingy. I need to relax.
So I googled this, as you know and up popped a list of things I need to stop doing if I have an addictive personality.
COMFORT EATING.
I do do that, it has been a real problem for me in the past, and is something that I have been working on a lot, often I eat to fill the boredom, mistaking it for hunger. Okay... I know I am not hungry I do it because I have nothing else to do.
USING ALCOHOL FOR SOCIALISATION.
I can honestly say that is not an issue, I have never really tried alcohol, I have had the occasional sip but all in all, I haven't really down it.
STAYING HYPERCONNECTED.
Oh, this I do and I know I do it bad, but I have improved a lot, I don't check it all the time but I do think about and often go out of my way to check. This is something I am very aware of and have been trying to change. I think its working, I don't take my phone with me everywhere to stop myself checking it all the time if it is on me because I do and I also turned notifications off on my phone so that I won't feel the need to check and reply straight away. I cant help reply, if I see a message their I have to reply, or I sit there thinking about it.
USING SEX TO REPLACE INTIMACY.
I dont have sex, but I guess I do the whole flirting side of it, I'm just fortunate that the person I do that with isn't wanting a physical relationship (my friends say it is more of an emotional relationship, to me its what I think friendship should be.)
SHOPPING FOR SELF-ESTEEM.
... Hmmm... Yup... there ya go... We hit the jackpot here. I do this, have for years, and now with a very tight budget you think id stop, but well, I don't. I still seem to think shopping helps atleast I know longer believe money can fix my problems.
SEEKING EXCTIMENT THROUGH GAMBLING.
No.
THINKING SMOKING IS RIGHT.
Hell no.
USING DRUGS TO SELF MEDICATE,
Moving on.
USING MARIJUANA TO RELAX.
Yeah, no. Not anymore. Hit it and quit it.
THINKING QUITTING IS TOO HARD.
No I just need the skills to quit. I don't even know where to begin, and I don't know what I need to quit.

Based on this, I think I'm okay, its normal to be obsessed its not normal to let it control your life.

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