The dream part time job.

So my friend looks over at me and goes, OMG you would love this job, guaranteed work and you spell check and rewrite work, I'm like yeah okay that would be really cool, I would enjoy that, he follows it up by going, we'll ummm yeah your spellings not that good so you wouldn't be good at it and refused to let me apply for it, (see he was looking through a website I cant use so the only way that I would be able to apply is if he sent me the details.) followed by I guess I could apply for it, I'm not really interested in it but I could do the job. I was pissed, really annoyed and then when I got angry at him for it, Okay I do tend to lose my cool, I stop talking normally and let my emotions roll, instead of having a normal conversation. He told me to stop with the emotional crap, which admittedly pissed me off more, but I tried to move on, then he comes back in and goes we could do it together if I got the job, I'm sorry but no. I won't help you with the job especially since it would be for free and especially since its the job I really want.

Not though, I have written down how I am feeling and although this hasn't been resolved its time to move on. let it go me, he's a douche, he is isn't going to change and its time you stopped bitching about and let your heart move on. Let yourself move on. Be free my worries, blow in the wind.

also I looked at his phone, ( cannot believe I'm that person, and it makes me wonder if I am the on with the problem, but I suspect we both are.) trying to find something to make me feel better or make me finally leave and move own, and found nothing interesting. As in nothing at all, one message made me feel sad until I thought about he said that no one wanted to do the really physical stuff with him and that it made him feel sad and lonely and I was think bitch please I do it, but in truth I don't do it all that often, I only started doing it recently, so I guess that is a fair message and I don't do half the stuff he will do with his brother.

I do feel really bad for looking through his phone, I guess the thing is both of us are trying so hard not to get in a another massive fight, and after he said that if it happens again he will leave, I think he realised so will I, and now all we do is try and keep the peace and it is exhausting.

For my though, I have to let it go. Let it go and move on.