Think of all the beauty left around you

I know that these feelings are coming from an irrational place, but I need to let them out.

Two of my friends are meeting up today to hang out, and yes they did invite me, but I couldn't actually go so I know that by me feeling left out is just me still learning to be comfortable with myself, this new found love I have for me is something I am still getting use to and finding out about me, I have the fear that they will turn around and decide I'm not worth it, that they are better off with out me. Mentally I know that they are not like that, and I know that I am not replaceable because I am an incredible person, emotionally I know people can be cruel and I want to be prepared for them leaving but I know that if I think they will leave I will end up pushing them away. So I am going to let this go, these emotions aren't necessary, they will leave my body.
I am feeling better. :)
I am feeling relaxed about all this now.