One day to rule them all.

It was the first day back to school and I am beginning to se the changes that have occurred with in me. :) I didn't get stressed out today, Or think at all about see Chris, it looks like the more I pull away the more effort he makes to see me. If i text him, he doesn't reply for hours, or sometimes at all. If I say nothing he texts, I am not going to change who I am, so I am still going to text him when I ever I think of something I want to say to him, and its okay that he doesn't text me back. If he wants to he will. :) Nothing I can do about it, I know he cares he just aint a texted. :)

Anyway Matt finally texted me, I know, I know, Matt hasn't been coming to school he has been getting busy with his work and hasn't had time, and the last time we talked and hung out Chris acting really jealous and I had mistakenly over thought it was because of me, but it wasn't he was just really busy and caught up in his own. And I haven't talked about this at all because I have been getting way caught up in chris, believing him to be all that was important. But I see the wrong, and am here to right them. It felt good to hear from Matt and know that he is okay and swell, and he is still a charming smooth talker, ladies man ;) I really have missed him.

As for me it has all been smooth sailing emotions wise. Its about time I relaxed a lot around school, I am working through the work and getting things done, and I cant do anything more then that, but I am also taking my time, doing such things as reading and writing on my blogs because it is important to make sure you take time out for yourself, I am feeling good. :) Its interesting that once I made the choice to change how different the world looks, I don't have to think about thinking positively I just do, Nothing gets on my nerves at the moment people dont make me angry or upset, and I don't escape into my made up world that is so much worse then my really world because I just don't need to.

Today was a good day, the sun was shinning bright, I spent some of lunch reading out in the sun and the latter part walking around talking. Im being me, I won't hide from who I am or let myself feel down about anything I like about myself.

I accept myself, I love myself, and I forgive myself for the things I didn't know until I learnt. ;)